Have you ever looked back and had to admit to yourself, that you haven’t really been present but just waiting? Have you ever noticed that nothing you did was exciting, worth remembering? All you did was simply living through life, waiting for something to happen.
~ music: both sides are even – the boxer rebellion ~
I have. I have been at that point. At that point where I simply lived, without really doing anything. I wasn’t especially sad, not especially happy, not especially anything. I just lived. And I didn’t think anything bad of it. I was waiting. In my mind, the exciting things were to come in future. I would just wait for a certain day, as if on that certain everything will be different.
But the day will only be as interesting as I make it.
And I think a lot of us go through that. This feeling like it doesn’t really matter that another day was boring. This impatient longing for more but not knowing for what.
This state of motionless life.
I think we shouldn’t just accept that.
I’ve been there. Till I realized that it’s not worth it. Shouldn’t we have at least something worth mentioning each evening? No matter if beautiful, interesting, even sad or difficult? But something that you remember when looking back at that time.
We don’t live to live in a blur of days,we shouldn’t let each morning just melt into the evening. We don’t live to you feel like too busy with life to actually live.
We live to have stories to tell, experiences and dreams to remember, moments and memories to recall. But in order to tell stories, you need to live them first.
Attentive, present and curious.
And I know I can only speak for myself, but that is how I want to take every day. Attentive, present and curious. I don’t want to let life just happens to me. I don’t want to simply live through time and then wonder where it went.
I know this sounds so deep and dramatic, and I apologize for that. Of course not every day can be a new adventure. But the mindset behind it is what counts.
I wrote this post as a reminder for me, in case I forget to make something out of every day. But maybe it can be a reminder to anyone of you out there, who goes through this same feeling. As always, I would love to hear your thoughts and opinion, tips and ideas to this post. I hope you have a good day.
I’m out and about,
~ I will start to add the song I listened to whilst writing my posts, a song that sets the mood and captures the message I want you to understand. I feel like music was the last component to fulfill my blog. With words, photos and a song I feel like I can capture an emotion and hopefully trasnport it to you. ~
Photography: “summer reminiscing” Instagram